one week later…
Sunday November 6th
I am just going to start off by saying I have been so far up in the clouds recently. My head has felt foggy, I haven’t been as motivated as I’ve been in the past, and I am just tired. I’ve been a bit annoyed with myself recently because of it. Before the hurricane I was doing SO well. I remember one day telling myself “wow I can’t remember the last time I was stressed out”. That is not normal for me. I felt so productive, inspired, and energetic. I am not too sure what is going on. Maybe it is just that point in the year where I am getting tired of school, homesick, and just overwhelmed. I wish I could just snap my fingers and be back to how I was feeling, but last time I checked I wasn’t magical…
Anywhooo, it's been a while since I have made a Self-ish Sunday post because I honestly haven’t really been all that self-ish. This past weekend I told myself I needed a day to myself and planned out my Sunday. I had an entire list of things I planned on getting done. I even stayed up the night before cleaning my room and getting things done so that I didn’t have to do them on Sunday. I woke up Sunday morning feeling the least bit motivated to even get out of bed, nonetheless complete all the things I had planned. So of course I instantly felt worse, “another unsuccessful Sunday ''. I wanted to go to Lululemon to exchange something, pick out fun recipes to make, and have a whole spa night. I can confidently tell you NONE of that happened. I ended up running to the UPS store to drop off a very overdue Amazon return and stopped in Walmart to drop off the disposable camera I used this past weekend at Universal. The rest of the day was a blur to be completely honest.
The day wasn’t completely fruitless; I actually did something pretty cool. (A little background info, I absolutely LOVE letters, especially handwritten ones. I just think they are so special and personal. If someone takes the time to sit down and hand write you a letter… that’s pretty awesome). Recently I have been really stressing about graduation and what my plans are for after I am done with school. I thought it would be cool to write a letter to future me. I found this website called FutureMe, where you are able to write yourself letters and have them automatically emailed to you in the future. Yeah, they aren’t handwritten and on paper, but it will be exciting to randomly receive an email on my 23rd birthday from 22 year old Shelby. By that time so many of the questions I have about myself will be answered. I just think that is so cool. I have made a goal to start sending a letter a day to future Shelby. It is kind of like journaling; I am just going to tell myself about what I did that day a year ago and I am going to challenge my future self to do something self-ish each day. This sounds a little confusing but hear me out. In my letter last night I told future me that I needed to go sit down with a glass of wine and a good book. So when future me reads my letter, it will be a reminder to take a few minutes to myself that day. Some advice from myself, just from a year ago. The rest of the evening I just chilled with some candles lit and did some bullet journaling.
Side Note: JUST GO WITH THE FLOW! You don’t always have to have a list of things to complete to feel accomplished, sometimes it works in the opposite way making you feel less successful. Don’t get me wrong, I am the queen of to-do lists, but this weekend really put things into perspective when instead of bringing me joy, my half-crossed to-do list just upset me. Sometimes you just need to wake up that day and do whatever your body is telling you that you need to do. If it's telling you to put on cozy clothes, lay in bed and watch movies all day, then that’s what you need to do. If it’s telling you that you should go walk around the mall and get a nice lunch, then toss on a cute outfit and get after it. Moral of the story is that your body and mind want what they want; You aren’t going to feel good if you are trying to force yourself to do something when your body is just not up for it. You shouldn’t feel like a failure for not completing your to-do list, so just jot down whatever you ended up doing that day and check it off anyways!
Another Side Note: Ya this post is about a week late, so be it! I still have multiple others from weeks ago that I plan on posting but just haven’t gotten around to editing yet. That. Is. Life. Y’all. Don’t stress yourself out, go at your own speed :)
